Welcome to my digital hoard.

I used to hoard ideas for some imagined future where I'd have time to do them justice.
That future never arrived. So I stopped waiting and started building. This site is the result.

Projects that became obsessions. Rabbit holes worth falling into. Stories that refused to stay in my head.
You'll find literary analysis, fiction projects, hyperfixations turned into essays. Some will bore you. Some might not.
This is a collection, not a thesis. If my name were Alexander, this would be my library.

Why the name?
Part of me just loves to laugh and part of me looked around at this hyper online, hyper sexualized modern world and decided the only way to survive it was to name it something that winks back.

That is why this lives under the banner OnlyFangirling.

Because… we are only fangirling about hyperfixations (✿◕‿◕)♡
Obsessions, spirals, deep dives, the good kind of brain rot. Nothing more. Nothing less. (≧◡≦) ♡

I am not good at taking photographs, so I credit, adapt, and work with the tools of the moment. Where that leads is still unfolding.

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Releasing the Mad: Tony Robert Fleury and the Birth of Modern Psychiatry
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Releasing the Mad: Tony Robert Fleury and the Birth of Modern Psychiatry
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Pinel Frees the Mad | Meaning and History of Tony Robert Fleury’s Painting

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Detroit Launches the Future: Red Bull, Ford, and F1's New Beginning
Detroit Launches the Future: Red Bull, Ford, and F1's New Beginning

Formula 1 is back, folks, and the 2026 season just kicked off with a bang in Detroit. Yee-ha.

The Experience Of Time
The Experience Of Time

The week between Christmas and New Year feels strange because of how your brain constructs time perception. Here's what psychology research reveals about holiday time distortion.

Formula 1 2026 Rules: A New Era
Formula 1 2026 Rules: A New Era

The 2026 F1 season brings the biggest rule changes in history. Smaller cars, 50/50 hybrid power, active aero, and the end of DRS. Here's what you need to know.

How Imitation Really Works and When Waiting Makes Economic Sense
How Imitation Really Works and When Waiting Makes Economic Sense
TIMELINE OF THE LOUVRE HEIST
TIMELINE OF THE LOUVRE HEIST

A detailed timeline of the Louvre jewel heist, the stolen crown jewels, investigation updates, values, theories, and what is known today.

Dadaism
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Dadaism
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A clear introduction to Dadaism, its origins, ideas, and why absurdity became a powerful artistic response to modern crisis.

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Why This AI Quote Refuses to Let Go
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Why This AI Quote Refuses to Let Go
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A reflective look at the real stakes of AI, inspired by Nick Bostrom’s Superintelligence, exploring indifference, risk, and what it means to use AI responsibly.

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The Death of Stalin: When Terror Becomes Farce Becomes Funny
The Death of Stalin: When Terror Becomes Farce Becomes Funny

An analysis of The Death of Stalin, exploring its satire of power, fear, and political systems, and why the film feels disturbingly familiar.

Movie Review Coherence: False beacons in a fractured multiverse
Movie Review Coherence: False beacons in a fractured multiverse

The colored glow sticks in James Ward Byrkit’s 2013 film represent a futile attempt to impose order on quantum chaos. int.

Movies for the Philosophy Minded: Six Films That Think
Movies for the Philosophy Minded: Six Films That Think

From Plato’s Cave in "The Matrix" to the ethics of "Life is Beautiful." We review six films that don’t just tell a story—they challenge your reality, consciousness, and sense of meaning.

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The Broken Girls by Simone St James review
The Broken Girls by Simone St James review

A detailed review of The Broken Girls by Simone St James, exploring its gothic boarding school setting, dual timelines, trauma, and haunting atmosphere.

The Downward Spiral of My Dark Vanessa: A Review
The Downward Spiral of My Dark Vanessa: A Review

An in-depth review of My Dark Vanessa by Kate Elizabeth Russell. Why the novel is such a difficult read, how it pulls readers into a dark psychological spiral, and why its discomfort is essential to its power.

Lord of the Flies by William Golding
Lord of the Flies by William Golding

Lord of the Flies is a classic novel often read for its themes of civilization and savagery. This review looks at the book through a personal lens, focusing on the painful loss of innocence as children descend into fear and violence.

The Education of Little Tree
The Education of Little Tree

A personal essay on The Education of Little Tree, exploring grief, grandparents, nature, and loss, alongside historical context and controversy surrounding the book.

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Classic Tomahawk Steak
Classic Tomahawk Steak

A classic tomahawk steak, pan seared and butter basted with garlic and sage, finished with a quick Metaxa flambé.

Bloody Maintenance: Iron Rich Comfort Meal for Your Period
Bloody Maintenance: Iron Rich Comfort Meal for Your Period

A well cooked steak with slow carbs and salt is not indulgence. It is maintenance.

Metaxa in the Kitchen: What It Is and How to Use It
Metaxa in the Kitchen: What It Is and How to Use It

A personal food story about cooking with Metaxa, from a family mussel sauce to flambéed tomahawk steak and nostalgic flavor.

Cowboy Tomahawk Steak with Grilled Corn and Romaine
Cowboy Tomahawk Steak with Grilled Corn and Romaine

Bold cowboy tomahawk steak flambéed with Metaxa, served with grilled corn and charred romaine.

Gluten Free Enchiladas with Mango Chutney
Gluten Free Enchiladas with Mango Chutney

Easy gluten free enchiladas with corn and mango chutney. A sweet and spicy Mexican Monday dinner with soft tortillas and a clean, fresh finish.

Coffee That Fuels You Without the Crash (ADHD friendly)
Coffee That Fuels You Without the Crash (ADHD friendly)

ADHD friendly celiac-safe coffee recipe with protein and healthy fats for focus without the crash.

Sweet Eggs: Sweet Potato Mash with Eggs and Bacon
Sweet Eggs: Sweet Potato Mash with Eggs and Bacon

Sweet Potato Mash with Soft Eggs and Bacon | Comfort Breakfast Recipe

Gluten-Free Tiramisu Cheesecake with MonChou
Gluten-Free Tiramisu Cheesecake with MonChou

Creamy gluten free tiramisu cheesecake with espresso, Disaronno, mascarpone, and MonChou on a buttery cookie crust. A rich small batch dessert.

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Why I Haven’t Bought the Dyson Airwrap
Why I Haven’t Bought the Dyson Airwrap

Dyson Airwrap dupes explained, no hype.

BHA vs AHA differences explained
BHA vs AHA differences explained

BHA vs AHA explained: how these exfoliating acids differ, how they work, and which skin concerns each one actually targets.

Salicylic acid & all of it’s uses
Salicylic acid & all of it’s uses

Salicylic acid beyond acne: how this oil-soluble exfoliant clears pores on scalp, body, and problem areas when used correctly.

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A Moon Named for Winter
A Moon Named for Winter

On December 5, 2025, much of the Northern Hemisphere witnessed the Cold Moon supermoon. It was the final supermoon of the year and one of 2025’s brightest full moons, appearing larger and more luminous than usual.

Cinnamon & Salt
Cinnamon & Salt

In witchcraft, some of the most enduring practices rely on the simplest materials. Cinnamon and salt are two such ingredients. Ordinary in the kitchen, potent in ritual.

The Winter Solstice: The Return of Light
The Winter Solstice: The Return of Light

The winter solstice on December 21 marks the longest night and the return of light. Across cultures, it is a moment of pause, release, and intention, honouring endings while choosing what will be carried into the coming cycle.

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How do I survive my first yoga class?
How do I survive my first yoga class?

Nervous about your first yoga class? Don't worry about the tight pants. We cover everything you need to know, from studio etiquette and borrowing mats to understanding "Savasana."

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Why This AI Quote Refuses to Let Go
Why This AI Quote Refuses to Let Go

A reflective look at the real stakes of AI, inspired by Nick Bostrom’s Superintelligence, exploring indifference, risk, and what it means to use AI responsibly.